Explanation / Apology / Farwell

I highly doubt most people will actually click the link to this Carrd and read this page, considering the fact that I'm not popular enough or assuming that most of my followers have already moved on from me. But if you're actually here and reading this, this is basically an explanation of why I suddenly haven't been active on my social media accounts for the past several months.
To be very straightforward...I've been struggling with mental health issues. More particularly social anxiety. A shit ton of social anxiety. I kept losing so many genuine friendships and potential friendships to the point where I always felt I've done something wrong to upset those I've pushed away. This constant experience I've had has caused my fear of interacting with others to worsen to the point where even thinking about talking to people causes me to have a panic attack. And along with my social anxiety, being on social media has been awful for my self-esteem too. Seeing others get way more interaction on their posts than mine made me feel super insecure about my personality and even my art. Heck, I even tended to get super anxious about posting my own art; I always feared it would either get hurtful comments or I would lose followers because of what I drew specifically.
So, sometime after a rather heartbreaking wake-up call I had on my latest birthday at the end of 2021, I've made a personally hard decision to just leave social media for good. I've been mostly drawing for myself now, drawing whatever I want without the fear of upsetting anybody with it or even having it go ignored. I've also been writing and playing video games in my spare time to cope with my platonic loneliness. Even though I'm still struggling with social anxiety to this day, I still have been feeling so much better about myself than I was when I was still active online.
Now, before I close off this statement...I'd like to apologize to those that actually did consider me their friend, especially those who were still actively talking to me. I'm extremely sorry for going offline without telling any of you and not contacting you afterwards. I have thought about reaching out to you plenty of times, but even my social anxiety got the best of me, and in the end I was too scared to check my messages. I understand if none of you will ever forgive me. You all deserve friends that are way better at actually being a friend than I was...than I will ever be.
Well...this is it then. I'm continuing to focus on my mental health, and I do not plan to return to social media anytime soon. I'm highly confident I will survive just fine without it.
So...farewell. And thank you all for everything.
~CorporalMarshmallow